I Listen To Crappy Music

I do. I admit it. I listen to some pretty bad junk that society and the Top 40 stations blast at me every hour. And I've been ashamed of one artist-up until now, when I realized I DON'T GIVE A FLYING FUCK!


Me, a 7th grader living in bum-diggidy nowhere Chicago suburb-land, going to a middle school that was on a gang line. In a school that was a breeding ground for new gang members (Kings or Cobra's), Bratz attired chola's, and the occasional super Pep-Prep Preppy cheerleader type, I, a tomboy skater girl chick, could not relate musically to any of the male artists (Although I loved Linkin Park) and didn't care for songs about Bitches And Hoes. (Eminem humbly excluded. I love him. So much...)


Avril Lavigne became popular when I was in middle school.
Yea. 
I know.
She's from Canada. 


I own every album. 
(I try not to judge me, but sometimes it' hard.) 


I would love to write music BUT I am unable to hear tunes-I have words. Tons of words-ALL THE WORDS-but no melodies. 
What she wrote about- writes about- is what I scribble down in secret poetry notebooks that will never see the light of day. 


I'm not saying I would pay money to see her in concert.
That's to far-even for me, but somehow she freakishly seems to channel how my life has been going. So I'm listing my 4 top album favorites.


And the best things is-You can't judge me! Ever seen an episode of Jersey Shore, or Real Housewives, or willingly went to see a Twilight Movie? (NONE OF WHICH, I am proud to say, I Have EVER Done.) Yea. 
And Ian McKellen is a Avril Lavigne fan. So HA!


Anything But Ordinary, Let Go (2002) - This song is me. While listening to this song, I always see myself walking the opposite way on train tracks while hoards of people walk past me. I am the only one going the wrong direction. This is my favorite Avril Lavigne song, and one of my favorite songs. Still, I wish to be, anything but ordinary. Sometimes I get so weird, I even freak myself out...


Nobody's Home, Under My Skin (2004) - I was a little fucked up the first two years of high school. And that is how I felt. Lost. Lost. Lost. Everyday. I still feel lost, but now I know that's part of me, and I use it to my advantage.  Be strong, be strong now...Don't know where she belongs. 


Runaway, The Best Damn Thing (2007) - Senior in high school. Ready to leave and start college in the enchanting place that is Santa Fe, New Mexico. I was afraid of being stuck. Seeing people my age settle and put their dreams aside because they were scared, for boyfriends that never panned out, because they didn't want to leave their family etc. etc. No. Not me. I'm still afraid of being stuck. I just wanna fall and lose myself, laugh so hard it hurts like hell, forget everything and run away!


I Love You, Goodbye Lullaby (2011)- I hate mushy songs. But if I wrote a love song, this is what it would sound like. You're so beautiful but that's not why I love you. The reason I love you is you being you. Just you. 


♥Rachel


♪You know that I'm a crazy bitch, I do what I want when I feel like it!♫